The past 3 months have passed by in a second yet it seems like forever since I have visited my little blog. Much has happened in this time, both happy, sad, good and bad and it is the sad and bad that have dragged out my return. I like my blog to be a happy place full of pretties, family and fun and have been lucky that for the past 3 years my life has been blessed beyond my wildest dreams with a wonderful Husband and together the greatest gift of all, our beautiful Daughter.
It is because of this that I have thought long and hard about whether or not to write this post, and if I did write it should I press the 'post' button. Is your blog the right place to share your sadness, heartbreak or should I keep my private thoughts just that, private?
In the past I have received great comfort during hard times and love during the good and hope I have been able to offer the same to others, so with that in mind I'll continue.
On the 25th of May we discovered we were expecting out second little miracle, we were happy at the prospect of a brother or sister for Sophie and over the moon at the thought of being parents for a second time. Our happines was to be short lived when, at ten weeks we lost our angel. It's been as long again since that day but it has become clear that the tears are going to continue a little while longer and, while I'm sure the feelings of loss will become less painful, for now I am still mourning for our lost baby.
I hope you understand that I can't disregard our loss with a breezy shopping post, I can't pretend our baby never existed, I can't pretend the loss hasn't changed me but equally I know I need to move on and say my goodbyes. I suppose this is part of that process so I hope you forgive me a sad post as I find the way back to my happy place
Lots of Love