Monday, 10 September 2012

Too Beautiful For Earth...

The past 3 months have passed by in a second yet it seems like forever since I have visited my little blog. Much has happened in this time, both happy, sad, good and bad and it is the sad and bad that have dragged out my return. I like my blog to be a happy place full of pretties, family and fun and have been lucky that for the past 3 years my life has been blessed beyond my wildest dreams with a wonderful Husband and together the greatest gift of all, our beautiful Daughter.


It is because of this that I have thought long and hard about whether or not to write this post, and if I did write it should I press the 'post' button. Is your blog the right place to share your sadness, heartbreak or should I keep my private thoughts just that, private?

In the past I have received great comfort during hard times and love during the good and hope I have been able to offer the same to others, so with that in mind I'll continue.
On the 25th of May we discovered we were expecting out second little miracle, we were happy at the prospect of a brother or sister for Sophie and over the moon at the thought of being parents for a second time. Our happines was to be short lived when, at ten weeks we lost our angel. It's been as long again since that day but it has become clear that the tears are going to continue a little while longer and, while I'm sure the feelings of loss will become less painful, for now I am still mourning for our lost baby.

I hope you understand that I can't disregard our loss with a breezy shopping post, I can't pretend our baby never existed, I can't pretend the loss hasn't changed me but equally I know I need to move on and say my goodbyes. I suppose this is part of that process so I hope you forgive me a sad post as I find the way back to my happy place

Lots of Love

14 comments:

Isobel said...

Dear Kelly,
My heart goes to you. All my love and thoughts are with you now, love. I cannot imagine the pain you have been through. I hope all gets better with time but understand that some things takes longer to feel more manageable.
All my love to you and yours.
xx

TCake said...

Hi hunny, so sad to hear your news. Take as long as you need and eventually it will become a little bit more manageable, sending you both hugs and much love Txx

sadie said...

I can understand why it is not something that is easy to talk about.

I am so sorry. I can't imagine how you are feeling.

x

Josie-Mary said...

So sorry to hear such sad news Kelly.... sending you a big hug.
Your blog should be about you & not what people want to hear. By talking about such terrible things could help others going through the same thing.
Much love xx

A garden just outside Venice said...

I hope writing it down will help you hunny.
Sending you a big hug and lots of love xxx

P.S. big apologies from my mum, when she met you, she wanted to tell you how sorry she was/is, but wasn't able because of the language.

lemonade kitty said...

It's always best to share the sad with the happy I think, after all none of us live the perfect, happy life all the time. So sorry you lost your little angel I know how sad you must be feeling, if it's any consolation I lost two and was told I couldn't have any more but then I had a girl and a boy both perfectly normal, so there is light at the end of the tunnel, look after yourself, Lucey x

Blueberry Heart said...

hi Kelly, so sorry to hear this,if blogging helps you or any other 'outlet' for that matter it can only be good for you, my thoughts with you all,
Bh x

Beki said...

Have been thinking about you lots since you told me.
You have my no. when you're ready to talk again xxx

Crafty Helen said...

Thanks so much for your kind comment at such a very sad time for you. I do hope that your pain lessens with time. Sending you lots of love, XX

Lisa said...

I'm so very sorry to hear your sad news Kelly. I can't imagine what you have all been through and it can't have been easy to type those words, but I am sending love and a hug to you.
Lisa x

LissyLou said...

Oh Hun, I know exactly what u are going through. We lost a baby at 16 weeks. It is so so hard. Even now 12 years later I still think about it. Sending you lots of love and hugs xxxxxxx

Jo said...

I'm so sorry to hear this sad news, Kelly. Thinking of the three of you. xx

Tracy said...

Oh Kelly, my heart goes out to you and you husband, I think you have to do want feels right for you, don't hide your feelings though and judging from the comments so far you have some wonderful online friends ready to lend a shoulder to cry on and words of encouragement and advice, take time to heal both physically and emotionally, sending you lots of love and hugs xxx

Callies Cottage said...

Oh Kelly...wrapping you in a huge warm hug and sending you,James and Sophie lots and lots of love....x